This morning, I realized that, recently the only time I've been spending with my Savior is in selfish prayer. I've had such a hard, stressful, emotional October but I haven't gone to Him for comfort. I've been depending on the love of my husband, the support of my family, and a warm hug of a close friend. It isn't first instinct for me to go to God for the support, love, and acceptance. I only talk to him when I need something, when I know he can intervene and make everything better. I pray things like, God please allow healing and in Josh's family and give is wife a sense of peace. God please let the insurance company total my car so that Matt and I don't have to worry about fixing it and selling it. God please let me get an A on this exam even though I didn't study enough for it. God please please please let Kay Jewelers make an exception for me or let my record show an inspection within the last 6 months even though I know I haven't been there, God you can work magically and fix this. God give me strength to get out of bed and go to work/school this morning.
November and Thanksgiving are just around the corner, and I need to make a change in my relationship with God. I need to thank Him for everything I have, and get in the habit of counting and focusing on my blessings. I have so many things to be thankful for by my first instinct is to focus on the negatives. There have been so many negatives this month. Here's to positives and a positive attitude in November.
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