new year

Well it's a new year which means resolutions. My favorite definition of resolution is "reduction to a simpler form; conversion." I don't like the traditional idea of making a change at new years, so I don't usually take on a major change.

I think my "resolve" to make a change this year just coincidentally seems to be happening over the beginning of the year.

Our church is doing a sermon series called "roll the dice." Pastor David challenges that of you've tried everything else to fulfill your life and you still feel empty or lost why not roll the dice and try God. Give God a chance to make a difference and prove your preconceived notions wrong. Initially I didn't think this series would have much of an application to me, and as usual LCBC surprised me and really spoke to my heart. They talked about giving God your journey this past Sunday. It immediately hit me; I need to be honest with myself. Recently, I heard someone say "if you want to see God laugh tell Him your plans."

My "plan" has always included God but I never wholeheartedly follow after him. I'm realizing this is a big problem in my life and my lukewarm relationship with Him has translated into a lukewarm life. I'm taking this year, to make a BIG change. I want God to make big improvements in my life. In my attitude, in my marriage, at my job, in my last semester of school and so forth.

I'm also planning some other changes but I don't think I'm going to divulge them quite yet. I think I will make more of a effort and I will be more motivated if I am doing it for me. I don't just want to have the satisfaction of telling people my goal I'm hoping they'll just see the changes in my life.

One last thing, my cousin Michelle recently wrote a New Years post about choosing one word that would define the difference you will make for yourself and other in the next 12 months. The idea came from a movement called: myoneword.org. After careful consideration I think my word will be "crave." More specifically what I choose to crave. Now I crave a job after graduation, time with my husband, cell service to use my iphone, and even food. But I want to make this year the year that I crave God before and exponentially more than anything else.