Well over the past few hours my life has truly changed in the blink of an eye.
Graduation is over and I'm officially a Penn State graduate. I didn't get my alumni sweatshirt yet but I can barely believe its time for that.
I have a job! I will be working in the Emergency Department of Pinnacle Community General! I am absolutely tickled to be working here because the department has a wonderful training program and its the hospital Matt is at most often for work. I start June 6th and its hard to believe I have a big-girl job now.
Matt broke his foot. BOO. We had a bonfire at our place last night to celebrate graduation. Well Matthew and Jeremy (my brother) were wrestling for fun and the story goes, they both landed on Matt's left foot. He has what they call a Lisfranc fracture, which is a dislocation and fracture of the metatarsal joint in the foot. For poor Matthew it was all 5 metatarsal joints. (x-ray picture to come) He went into the ER last night and had the dislocation reduced but he will need surgery to get a stabilizing pin sometime within the next week. This most likely means he will be out of work and possibly school for a few months because of the recovery time.
Please pray for us. If you know Matt, you know it will be very difficult for him to take it easy and keep his foot elevated etc. He isn't one to sit around at all and he's likely to go insane if he doesn't have some type of project to do. Thankfully this week we had both already taken vacation and he is able to rest up now and worry about things later.
Thank you Jesus that I have the nursing knowledge and loving heart to care for my bum-foot husband :)
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
hunger and thirst
Love hurts. It's scary. It requires trust. Real love is hard and a lot of work.
How do you keep a relationship strong? Some would say "We just keep falling in love."
The God of heaven is inviting me to keep falling in love with Him. He attaches a promise to that invitation, a promise of a blessing. Its the blessing I've been craving. When I desire God more than anything, when we commit with our lives to keep falling in love, He comes and fills up our hearts.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, because they will be filled. Matthew 5:6
We live in a society where many of us never hunger or thirst for anything. We never allow ourselves to physically experience either one. We dirve through a fast-food restaurant just before we think we might have a hunger pang. So this idea of feeling desperate for food or drink already seems weird.
To hunger and thirst for the righteousness of God is to desire Him more than anything. It is longing for His consistent presence and His input in your life, just like my consistent need for food.
So, how do I grow close to God? By choosing daily to deny myself something that is permissible but not beneficial. By making this intentional sacrifice for the sole purpose of growing closer to God. After all, Jesus himself said, "If anyone would come after me, he must denyhimself and take up his cross daily and follow me" Luke 9.23
But self-control is hard. We don't like to deny ourselves. But there is another level of self-control that too few are able to find. "So I say, live by the spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature" Galatians 5:16 In other words, live with the willingness to walk away when the Holy Spirit nudges you and says, "The food choice is permissible but not beneficial - so don't eat it."
So the obvious question is how can we tune into theses nudges of the Holy Spirit? "Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in touch with the Spirit." Galatians 5:25 We read the Bible with the intention of putting into practice what we read while asking the Holy Spirit to direct us in knowing how to do this.
Its not easy.It's not easy relying on the Holy Spirit to direct us into wise choices. It's not easy to dare to actually live a life in which we put Scripture to action. Especially Scriptures about self-control. It's not easy but it is possible.
How do you keep a relationship strong? Some would say "We just keep falling in love."
The God of heaven is inviting me to keep falling in love with Him. He attaches a promise to that invitation, a promise of a blessing. Its the blessing I've been craving. When I desire God more than anything, when we commit with our lives to keep falling in love, He comes and fills up our hearts.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, because they will be filled. Matthew 5:6
We live in a society where many of us never hunger or thirst for anything. We never allow ourselves to physically experience either one. We dirve through a fast-food restaurant just before we think we might have a hunger pang. So this idea of feeling desperate for food or drink already seems weird.
To hunger and thirst for the righteousness of God is to desire Him more than anything. It is longing for His consistent presence and His input in your life, just like my consistent need for food.
So, how do I grow close to God? By choosing daily to deny myself something that is permissible but not beneficial. By making this intentional sacrifice for the sole purpose of growing closer to God. After all, Jesus himself said, "If anyone would come after me, he must denyhimself and take up his cross daily and follow me" Luke 9.23
But self-control is hard. We don't like to deny ourselves. But there is another level of self-control that too few are able to find. "So I say, live by the spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature" Galatians 5:16 In other words, live with the willingness to walk away when the Holy Spirit nudges you and says, "The food choice is permissible but not beneficial - so don't eat it."
So the obvious question is how can we tune into theses nudges of the Holy Spirit? "Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in touch with the Spirit." Galatians 5:25 We read the Bible with the intention of putting into practice what we read while asking the Holy Spirit to direct us in knowing how to do this.
Its not easy.It's not easy relying on the Holy Spirit to direct us into wise choices. It's not easy to dare to actually live a life in which we put Scripture to action. Especially Scriptures about self-control. It's not easy but it is possible.
Monday, January 3, 2011
new year
Well it's a new year which means resolutions. My favorite definition of resolution is "reduction to a simpler form; conversion." I don't like the traditional idea of making a change at new years, so I don't usually take on a major change.
I think my "resolve" to make a change this year just coincidentally seems to be happening over the beginning of the year.
Our church is doing a sermon series called "roll the dice." Pastor David challenges that of you've tried everything else to fulfill your life and you still feel empty or lost why not roll the dice and try God. Give God a chance to make a difference and prove your preconceived notions wrong. Initially I didn't think this series would have much of an application to me, and as usual LCBC surprised me and really spoke to my heart. They talked about giving God your journey this past Sunday. It immediately hit me; I need to be honest with myself. Recently, I heard someone say "if you want to see God laugh tell Him your plans."
My "plan" has always included God but I never wholeheartedly follow after him. I'm realizing this is a big problem in my life and my lukewarm relationship with Him has translated into a lukewarm life. I'm taking this year, to make a BIG change. I want God to make big improvements in my life. In my attitude, in my marriage, at my job, in my last semester of school and so forth.
I'm also planning some other changes but I don't think I'm going to divulge them quite yet. I think I will make more of a effort and I will be more motivated if I am doing it for me. I don't just want to have the satisfaction of telling people my goal I'm hoping they'll just see the changes in my life.
One last thing, my cousin Michelle recently wrote a New Years post about choosing one word that would define the difference you will make for yourself and other in the next 12 months. The idea came from a movement called: myoneword.org. After careful consideration I think my word will be "crave." More specifically what I choose to crave. Now I crave a job after graduation, time with my husband, cell service to use my iphone, and even food. But I want to make this year the year that I crave God before and exponentially more than anything else.
I think my "resolve" to make a change this year just coincidentally seems to be happening over the beginning of the year.
Our church is doing a sermon series called "roll the dice." Pastor David challenges that of you've tried everything else to fulfill your life and you still feel empty or lost why not roll the dice and try God. Give God a chance to make a difference and prove your preconceived notions wrong. Initially I didn't think this series would have much of an application to me, and as usual LCBC surprised me and really spoke to my heart. They talked about giving God your journey this past Sunday. It immediately hit me; I need to be honest with myself. Recently, I heard someone say "if you want to see God laugh tell Him your plans."
My "plan" has always included God but I never wholeheartedly follow after him. I'm realizing this is a big problem in my life and my lukewarm relationship with Him has translated into a lukewarm life. I'm taking this year, to make a BIG change. I want God to make big improvements in my life. In my attitude, in my marriage, at my job, in my last semester of school and so forth.
I'm also planning some other changes but I don't think I'm going to divulge them quite yet. I think I will make more of a effort and I will be more motivated if I am doing it for me. I don't just want to have the satisfaction of telling people my goal I'm hoping they'll just see the changes in my life.
One last thing, my cousin Michelle recently wrote a New Years post about choosing one word that would define the difference you will make for yourself and other in the next 12 months. The idea came from a movement called: myoneword.org. After careful consideration I think my word will be "crave." More specifically what I choose to crave. Now I crave a job after graduation, time with my husband, cell service to use my iphone, and even food. But I want to make this year the year that I crave God before and exponentially more than anything else.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
thanksgiving
I am thankful for...
My SAVIOR
My loving, supportive, hard-working, husband
My mother, father, sister and brother
My grandmother and grandfather
My mother-in-law, her boyfriend, my sisters-law, my father-in-law and my grandparents-in-law
My friends from State College, from nursing school, and friends at work
My good paying, flexible, close-to-my-home, enhancing-my-education jobs
My warm, inviting, full-of-family, beutiful home
My ability to walk, run, jump, talk, scream, sing, hear, feel, smell, and taste
and soooooooooo much more
but I'm thankful for these things everyday, not just on this day of pilgram and indian celebration. So
Happy Turkey Day
My SAVIOR
My loving, supportive, hard-working, husband
My mother, father, sister and brother
My grandmother and grandfather
My mother-in-law, her boyfriend, my sisters-law, my father-in-law and my grandparents-in-law
My friends from State College, from nursing school, and friends at work
My good paying, flexible, close-to-my-home, enhancing-my-education jobs
My warm, inviting, full-of-family, beutiful home
My ability to walk, run, jump, talk, scream, sing, hear, feel, smell, and taste
and soooooooooo much more
but I'm thankful for these things everyday, not just on this day of pilgram and indian celebration. So
Happy Turkey Day
Friday, November 19, 2010
holidays
I'm feeling totally bah-humbug this year. I'm not looking forward to the holidays for anything other than a few days off. I just want rest; I want complete rejuvenation over the next week and the month off for Christmas. I just need a vacation from everything.
I hate the American tradition of presents and giving. It's to much. It's just a drain on our time and money. There are thousands of impoverished people around the world in dire need of their next meal. Yesterday on the news they were talking about how empty most of the local food banks are because of the increasing number of people needing food and the decreasing number of people giving. There are many families even in our own backyard who won't have enough to feed their family over the holidays.
I think I need a total change this year. I would rather give to those who need this year and see a difference made. I want to help others instead of recieve things that I really didn't even want or need in the first place. People have been asking me what is on my list and honestly I can't think of one thing. But I can tell you what is on my heart, those who are less fortunate than me.
I hate the American tradition of presents and giving. It's to much. It's just a drain on our time and money. There are thousands of impoverished people around the world in dire need of their next meal. Yesterday on the news they were talking about how empty most of the local food banks are because of the increasing number of people needing food and the decreasing number of people giving. There are many families even in our own backyard who won't have enough to feed their family over the holidays.
I think I need a total change this year. I would rather give to those who need this year and see a difference made. I want to help others instead of recieve things that I really didn't even want or need in the first place. People have been asking me what is on my list and honestly I can't think of one thing. But I can tell you what is on my heart, those who are less fortunate than me.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
see the blessing
I've recently been given many opportunities to "see the blessing" in a situation that is less than satisfactory to me. How do I make myself see the positive and not immediately focus on the negative. I have a tendency to make a habit of pointing out the good in other people's circumstances but when it comes to myself my view is clouded by the bad.
God give me an attitude of gratitude because I am blessed more than I know sometimes. Thank you for the people you put in my life that show me the pros when all I can see is the cons.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
God give me an attitude of gratitude because I am blessed more than I know sometimes. Thank you for the people you put in my life that show me the pros when all I can see is the cons.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Praise the Lord
So today, although it's only the first of November I already have something to be thankful for!
I called USAA (our car insurance company) to discuss the specifics of them coming to pick up my totaled car! That's right they decided fixing it was more expensive than the car's total value! Praise the Lord, Matt and I don't have to worry about fixing and selling it! They are coming today to take it off our hands and I have to say I will be so thankful to see it go!!
As many of you may know we also bought a new car this past week! It's a 2007 Nissan Versa! It's so cute but of course Matt liked it for it's price, condition, and safety rating. We spent more than half of our savings on it but we were determined to buy it the Dave Ramsey way, in cash. Well were were both excited about the new car and depending on God to hold us through any unforeseen emergencies that might require money. I will admit, I was worried about how tight we would be, but I knew God would provide.
So anyways while I was talking to the nice insurance company lady today she told the total they would be paying us for the Jetta. It was suspenseful because of course she had to "run the numbers." When she finally told me I was floored, it was almost 3 times what we were expecting!! And the amount will replace a third of what we spent on the new one! I'm just beyond amazed! Only God can provide like that!
I called USAA (our car insurance company) to discuss the specifics of them coming to pick up my totaled car! That's right they decided fixing it was more expensive than the car's total value! Praise the Lord, Matt and I don't have to worry about fixing and selling it! They are coming today to take it off our hands and I have to say I will be so thankful to see it go!!
As many of you may know we also bought a new car this past week! It's a 2007 Nissan Versa! It's so cute but of course Matt liked it for it's price, condition, and safety rating. We spent more than half of our savings on it but we were determined to buy it the Dave Ramsey way, in cash. Well were were both excited about the new car and depending on God to hold us through any unforeseen emergencies that might require money. I will admit, I was worried about how tight we would be, but I knew God would provide.
So anyways while I was talking to the nice insurance company lady today she told the total they would be paying us for the Jetta. It was suspenseful because of course she had to "run the numbers." When she finally told me I was floored, it was almost 3 times what we were expecting!! And the amount will replace a third of what we spent on the new one! I'm just beyond amazed! Only God can provide like that!
Saturday, October 30, 2010
selfish
This morning, I realized that, recently the only time I've been spending with my Savior is in selfish prayer. I've had such a hard, stressful, emotional October but I haven't gone to Him for comfort. I've been depending on the love of my husband, the support of my family, and a warm hug of a close friend. It isn't first instinct for me to go to God for the support, love, and acceptance. I only talk to him when I need something, when I know he can intervene and make everything better. I pray things like, God please allow healing and in Josh's family and give is wife a sense of peace. God please let the insurance company total my car so that Matt and I don't have to worry about fixing it and selling it. God please let me get an A on this exam even though I didn't study enough for it. God please please please let Kay Jewelers make an exception for me or let my record show an inspection within the last 6 months even though I know I haven't been there, God you can work magically and fix this. God give me strength to get out of bed and go to work/school this morning.
November and Thanksgiving are just around the corner, and I need to make a change in my relationship with God. I need to thank Him for everything I have, and get in the habit of counting and focusing on my blessings. I have so many things to be thankful for by my first instinct is to focus on the negatives. There have been so many negatives this month. Here's to positives and a positive attitude in November.
November and Thanksgiving are just around the corner, and I need to make a change in my relationship with God. I need to thank Him for everything I have, and get in the habit of counting and focusing on my blessings. I have so many things to be thankful for by my first instinct is to focus on the negatives. There have been so many negatives this month. Here's to positives and a positive attitude in November.
Monday, October 25, 2010
go away satan
For those of you reading this who are in the mood for an uplifting or encouraging story... stop now.
Throughout October the Bailys have been feeling satan's attacks. I feel so emotionally exhausted, just completely spent. This "season" of our life has been wearing me down day by day little by little; to the point were I wonder where the strength for tomorrow will come.
My schedule is challenging to say the least. 15 credits of nursing classes plus keeping up with the paperwork, studying and assignments take up the majority of my time. Add 36 hours of work a week and I'm down to one day off. Six days a week on average 10 hours a day of my time is spent at the hospital. Sunday is officially my only day with nothing scheduled; one glorious day of rest.
Matt works full time which usually means fitting shifts in at 16 hours at a time or picking up overnights. Paramedic school at HACC takes up the rest of his time with 8-12 hours of class a week plus 12 or more hours clinical a week. He also has only one day off, Sunday. Thankfully our days off coincide and we get a few precious hours together.
Two weekends ago my diamond fell out of my engagement ring. On no fault of their own the company told us the warranty doesn't apply because I didn't have to ring in recently to be inspected. I irresponsibly didn't read the warranty fine print that said that without regular inspection Kay will not replace the gem. I guess we wait a few years and buy a new one.
Friday night one of Matt's good friends was in a motorcycle accident. You have to know Josh to understand why many of us weren't all that shocked to hear what happened; he was a daredevil. That doesn't mean we weren't heart broken for his wife. He wasn't wearing a helmet and his injuries were so bad, he died before EMS even got there. The worst part is he was driving around to tell people that he and his wife just found out they were expecting. He was a great guy, a little rough around the edges, but he will be missed.
Saturday night I was driving home from a long 12 hour shift at work and I hit a deer. I wasn't hurt but my car definitely was. The whole front end and everything just inside the bumper will need replaced. The insurance company is coming by Thursday, God willing it should be completely covered.
Needless to say I woke up this morning feeling down in the dumps. I didn't even think I had enough energy to get out if bed. I feel so overwhelmed. All i can focus on is a line in a song we sang yesterday "If our God is for us, then who could ever stop us? Then what could stand against?" Thank you God Almighty for being in control of the unknown in my life; lead me on.
Throughout October the Bailys have been feeling satan's attacks. I feel so emotionally exhausted, just completely spent. This "season" of our life has been wearing me down day by day little by little; to the point were I wonder where the strength for tomorrow will come.
My schedule is challenging to say the least. 15 credits of nursing classes plus keeping up with the paperwork, studying and assignments take up the majority of my time. Add 36 hours of work a week and I'm down to one day off. Six days a week on average 10 hours a day of my time is spent at the hospital. Sunday is officially my only day with nothing scheduled; one glorious day of rest.
Matt works full time which usually means fitting shifts in at 16 hours at a time or picking up overnights. Paramedic school at HACC takes up the rest of his time with 8-12 hours of class a week plus 12 or more hours clinical a week. He also has only one day off, Sunday. Thankfully our days off coincide and we get a few precious hours together.
Two weekends ago my diamond fell out of my engagement ring. On no fault of their own the company told us the warranty doesn't apply because I didn't have to ring in recently to be inspected. I irresponsibly didn't read the warranty fine print that said that without regular inspection Kay will not replace the gem. I guess we wait a few years and buy a new one.
Friday night one of Matt's good friends was in a motorcycle accident. You have to know Josh to understand why many of us weren't all that shocked to hear what happened; he was a daredevil. That doesn't mean we weren't heart broken for his wife. He wasn't wearing a helmet and his injuries were so bad, he died before EMS even got there. The worst part is he was driving around to tell people that he and his wife just found out they were expecting. He was a great guy, a little rough around the edges, but he will be missed.
Saturday night I was driving home from a long 12 hour shift at work and I hit a deer. I wasn't hurt but my car definitely was. The whole front end and everything just inside the bumper will need replaced. The insurance company is coming by Thursday, God willing it should be completely covered.
Needless to say I woke up this morning feeling down in the dumps. I didn't even think I had enough energy to get out if bed. I feel so overwhelmed. All i can focus on is a line in a song we sang yesterday "If our God is for us, then who could ever stop us? Then what could stand against?" Thank you God Almighty for being in control of the unknown in my life; lead me on.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
last weekend
last weekend was both wonderful and horrible.
horrible because the diamond fell out of my engagement ring and the jeweler won't replace it. apparently it has to be inspected every 6 months for their insurance policy to apply. wish i had known that.
wonderful because my beautiful roommate Breanne celebrated her bridal shower and bachlorette party. november 13th she will be married and i so happy for her.
horrible because the diamond fell out of my engagement ring and the jeweler won't replace it. apparently it has to be inspected every 6 months for their insurance policy to apply. wish i had known that.
wonderful because my beautiful roommate Breanne celebrated her bridal shower and bachlorette party. november 13th she will be married and i so happy for her.
Monday, October 11, 2010
secrets
I recently got an email entitled "10 Secrets of a Successful Marriage" and I immediatly wondered why they called them secerts. I wish these "secrets" that seem like common sense to me were applied to more marriages. Maybe the divorce rate in the US wouldn't be >50%.
My favorite "secret" was this: "Marriage is often about fighting the battle between your ears. Successful couples have learned to resist holding grudges, bringing up the past and remember that they married an imperfect person - and so did their spouse." I think I liked this one so much because recently Matt and I have been discussing some things that we could easily hold against one another. And it has been a battle in the mind, at least for me. Its sad that Satan can so easily make my mind wander and cause me assume the worst of Matt. Why isn't it easier to give him the benefit of the doubt and trust his heart?
A simple, yet surprisingly difficult, principle to follow at least over the first 15 months of my marriage. I have to consciously make an effort to trust him.
My favorite "secret" was this: "Marriage is often about fighting the battle between your ears. Successful couples have learned to resist holding grudges, bringing up the past and remember that they married an imperfect person - and so did their spouse." I think I liked this one so much because recently Matt and I have been discussing some things that we could easily hold against one another. And it has been a battle in the mind, at least for me. Its sad that Satan can so easily make my mind wander and cause me assume the worst of Matt. Why isn't it easier to give him the benefit of the doubt and trust his heart?
A simple, yet surprisingly difficult, principle to follow at least over the first 15 months of my marriage. I have to consciously make an effort to trust him.
Monday, October 4, 2010
emergency room
Today was 12 hours spent in the emergency room's psych patient monitoring room. I am half thankful because it allowed me 12, mostly uninterrupted hours to study for my pediatrics exam on Wednesday. However I am also half sad because of what I saw today. Obviously I can't disclose any identifying patient information but I don't think describing the type of patients does any harm.
A 55 year old women brought herself in after feeling very depressed over the past month or so. She said it culminated in a fight she had with her husband over the past few days, and afterwards she was left with ideas of suicide. She was very hard to read, her face seemed blank. She stared at the walls and said only a hand full of words to me over the intercom system. She didn't ask to call her family members, and no one showed up to support her. She left with EMS and went alone to an inpatient psych hospital that was better equipped to treat her. She looked like a worn out rag, overused and abused.
A 18 year old young man was brought in by his parents. They claimed that when he gets angry he becomes uncontrollable. A recent fit, started by his broken down car, became so out of control that he threatened both his parents saying he was on the brink of a "murdurous rampage." He has had anger problems since 2007 when his parents split and ultimately divorced. Adding on top of that he just graduated from high school and didn't pass the necessary entrance exams for the NAVY. Disappointment was written on his face.
A 15 year old girl came in with her mother claiming that she felt worthless and that "no one would miss her." She was dumped by her boyfriend of 1 month in July and since she had tried several times to kill herself. She jumped into traffic, took pills, and tried to suffocate herself. She came in dressed in a completely inapproprate outfit and her mother just rolled her eyes at most everything she said. I think she was just looking for attention in all the wrong places.
I sat there and watched them, as an employee of the hospital, to keep them safe. However I left feeling guilty because I know all they need is a savior to show them they're unique, loved, and designed for a purpose. Sometimes I feel like they do, lost and alone in this harsh cold world. I long for deeper relationships and meaning in my life, but I know I have the unconditional love of a savior to fall back on. There is a God who loves me so much that he can catch me when I feel desperate and remind me that I was put here on this earth for a purpose. My purpose is to tell them what I know and how they can receive such JOY. I can't imagine what it would feel like to not have God on my side.
Their life is too short to not tell them of the Joy I find in Jesus.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
transitions
It's already the last day of September, unbelievable.
On Tuesday during a bible study I recently joined, we discussed our "season" of life. I consider myself in the season of transitions. I recently transitioned from being a child to an adult. I have transitioned from being under my parent’s roof to independent at college. More recently I have transitioned from single to married. I will soon transition from being a student to being a full time employee.
All this change in my life reminds me how short my time on earth really is.
James 4:14 “You are a mist that appears for a little while then vanishes.”
So what will I do with this life? What will be my purpose?
God’s purpose for my life is to glorify Him.
Isaiah 43:7 “everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory…”
I wholeheartedly want to adopt this purpose in all areas of my life. Hearing this charge has reminded me that putting God on the back burner isn’t an option. He should be a part of my environment, my relationships, my job, my schoolwork, my marriage, everything. But I have been lazy; I don’t make Him a priority or a focus of my life. I am lukewarm. I get caught up in things like fitting in, or doing well in school, or pleasing my husband. Why is it so easy to lost focus. It is so much easier to be of the world than be of God in the world.
Ghandi once said, “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.”
I want to be more like Christ.
ps. I change the name of this blog to reflect my new focus :)
Monday, September 27, 2010
why not
Because I have an exam on Thursday, I'm procrastinating.
I'm procrastinating by starting a blog because it seems to be the new cool thing to do. After reading a certain mrs. baker's recent post I was inspired to start this journey myself. I want to take time out of my overbooked schedule to put to paper all the thoughts stored up in my overflowing brain.
So you may say: Why now? I will respond: Why not? I'm in my super senior year of nursing school, my last year of working as a "pre-nurse" and into my second year of marriage. Lots of major transitions are about to happen in my life. Hopefully putting it to pen will allow me to take the time later, reread my words, and see from a new perspective how I got to where I am. Time is flying by so quickly that I won't remember what it was like during this phase of my life unless I really take the time to grow through recording.
Recently as a church body, we have been reading and rereading the book of proverbs. Today's chapter, because they usually coincide with the day of the month was proverbs 27. Having read this chapter many times in the past months I assumed I wouldn't gain any new information by reading it yet again. But as usual, God surprised me and I was struck by a verse I didn't really acknowledge previously. "As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person." Proverbs 27:19 How does my heart reflect me? We must be honest with ourselves, what is the true reflection of our hearts. What we experience on the outside is a direct reflection of the inside. So what are your actions portraying about your heart?
I ask myself this and I immediately wonder what my coworkers, classmates, family and husband see inside me everyday. I want my reflection to be a glowing sign of Christ in me. I don't think that it is right now, so I have room to grow. But I know that is the direction I want to steer my life, and I have the commitment to continue towards the goal.
(mostly Heidi)
I'm procrastinating by starting a blog because it seems to be the new cool thing to do. After reading a certain mrs. baker's recent post I was inspired to start this journey myself. I want to take time out of my overbooked schedule to put to paper all the thoughts stored up in my overflowing brain.
So you may say: Why now? I will respond: Why not? I'm in my super senior year of nursing school, my last year of working as a "pre-nurse" and into my second year of marriage. Lots of major transitions are about to happen in my life. Hopefully putting it to pen will allow me to take the time later, reread my words, and see from a new perspective how I got to where I am. Time is flying by so quickly that I won't remember what it was like during this phase of my life unless I really take the time to grow through recording.
Recently as a church body, we have been reading and rereading the book of proverbs. Today's chapter, because they usually coincide with the day of the month was proverbs 27. Having read this chapter many times in the past months I assumed I wouldn't gain any new information by reading it yet again. But as usual, God surprised me and I was struck by a verse I didn't really acknowledge previously. "As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person." Proverbs 27:19 How does my heart reflect me? We must be honest with ourselves, what is the true reflection of our hearts. What we experience on the outside is a direct reflection of the inside. So what are your actions portraying about your heart?
I ask myself this and I immediately wonder what my coworkers, classmates, family and husband see inside me everyday. I want my reflection to be a glowing sign of Christ in me. I don't think that it is right now, so I have room to grow. But I know that is the direction I want to steer my life, and I have the commitment to continue towards the goal.
(mostly Heidi)
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