transitions

It's already the last day of September, unbelievable.

On Tuesday during a bible study I recently joined, we discussed our "season" of life. I consider myself in the season of transitions. I recently transitioned from being a child to an adult. I have transitioned from being under my parent’s roof to independent at college. More recently I have transitioned from single to married. I will soon transition from being a student to being a full time employee.

All this change in my life reminds me how short my time on earth really is.

James 4:14 “You are a mist that appears for a little while then vanishes.”

So what will I do with this life? What will be my purpose?

God’s purpose for my life is to glorify Him.

Isaiah 43:7 “everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory…”

I wholeheartedly want to adopt this purpose in all areas of my life. Hearing this charge has reminded me that putting God on the back burner isn’t an option. He should be a part of my environment, my relationships, my job, my schoolwork, my marriage, everything. But I have been lazy; I don’t make Him a priority or a focus of my life. I am lukewarm. I get caught up in things like fitting in, or doing well in school, or pleasing my husband. Why is it so easy to lost focus. It is so much easier to be of the world than be of God in the world.

Ghandi once said, “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.”

I want to be more like Christ.

ps. I change the name of this blog to reflect my new focus :)

why not

Because I have an exam on Thursday, I'm procrastinating.

I'm procrastinating by starting a blog because it seems to be the new cool thing to do. After reading a certain mrs. baker's recent post I was inspired to start this journey myself. I want to take time out of my overbooked schedule to put to paper all the thoughts stored up in my overflowing brain.

So you may say: Why now? I will respond: Why not? I'm in my super senior year of nursing school, my last year of working as a "pre-nurse" and into my second year of marriage. Lots of major transitions are about to happen in my life. Hopefully putting it to pen will allow me to take the time later, reread my words, and see from a new perspective how I got to where I am. Time is flying by so quickly that I won't remember what it was like during this phase of my life unless I really take the time to grow through recording.

Recently as a church body, we have been reading and rereading the book of proverbs. Today's chapter, because they usually coincide with the day of the month was proverbs 27. Having read this chapter many times in the past months I assumed I wouldn't gain any new information by reading it yet again. But as usual, God surprised me and I was struck by a verse I didn't really acknowledge previously. "As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person." Proverbs 27:19 How does my heart reflect me? We must be honest with ourselves, what is the true reflection of our hearts. What we experience on the outside is a direct reflection of the inside. So what are your actions portraying about your heart?

I ask myself this and I immediately wonder what my coworkers, classmates, family and husband see inside me everyday. I want my reflection to be a glowing sign of Christ in me. I don't think that it is right now, so I have room to grow. But I know that is the direction I want to steer my life, and I have the commitment to continue towards the goal.

(mostly Heidi)